*Warning: This is not my usual update and if you choose to skip down to the "Thank you" portion, I will certainly understand and might even encourage it.
The Freak Out- It arrived. The email. It arrived. Registration Confirmation. It's here. It's a done deal. I'm officially registered with Nike and am expected to show up at the starting line bright and early on Oct. 19th. Why is this just hitting me now? I don't know. Who's brilliant idea was it to do this a 2nd time? Sure, I sent out the original invite to friends but they were supposed to tell me I'm crazy and that running a marathon together would be the dumbest way to spend a reunion weekend. They were supposed to politely say no and immediately request that I have my head examined. But noooooooooooooo [insert whiny teenage voice], they had to say yes right away and start training/fundraising and getting excited about the cause and health benefits and the challenge of it all. Great. Now, what? Sure, it'll be good for me. Sure, I still whole-heartedly support the cause and (unfortunately) continue to find reasons to support cancer research. And sure, doing something to benefit the world makes a reunion even more special. But...it's haaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrd. [Again, insert whiny teenage voice.] I have 101 reasons why it's hard but I'll spare you for now. I've been mostly positive this season, even in the midst of the difficult weeks, believing that positive thinking can only have positive affects. Well, I'm freaking out now...releasing the pent up negative energy, hoping that getting this out of my system will somehow free me to accept the positive energy I've been practicing for months.
The Training- Now, that I've taken a few deep breaths, I'll tell you that I've completed 13 miles two weeks in a row. Back to back, half marathons...not bad. And I'll tell you that I walked them. Another confession. I'm not a runner. I want to be but I'm not at this kind of distance. So, I'll continue to try to increase my running during my short mid-week distances and hope that someday, I'll be able to incorporate the running into my long training sessions. I hope that doesn't disappoint anyone. I'm trying to be a proud walker and take solace in the fact that I walk almost as fast as some of the runners. So, I'm certainly not out for a Sunday stroll!
The Thank Yous- A few more deep breaths. With this season being more difficult, I can't tell you how encouraging it is to receive your donations and notes. Often times, that's the thing that gets me out of bed at 6:15 on Sunday mornings to meet my team and keeps me going when I think I can't give anymore. Sometimes, I think about specific donors and dedicate that mile to them or the person in their life who has battled cancer. If you have made a donation and would like to dedicate a specific mile to your loved one, let me know which mile you'd prefer and I'll gladly walk (or run, if I can) in their honor. This week, I send out a special thank you to Allyncia Williams, Pasha Hosseini, Megan Moelbert, and Jill & Dave Humes for your generous donations. With your help, we're at 46% of my goal!
*Disclaimer- I do believe in what we're doing and believe that all goals will be met. This is just an honest moment in one girl's journey to the finish line.
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Monday, August 18, 2008
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It's ok! You're doing it! You can do it, you have done it, you will continue to press on....even if we have to drag you for miles until you cross the finish line. Everyone is entitled to a freak out moment. You just had yours! Feel better now???
And, if anyone dare turn their nose at walking, I say, tell them to put on a pair of sneakers and walk for 13.1 miles. Then we'll chat! So let's hear it for us walkers!!!!!!! Woooo Hooooo!!!!!
Oh yeah, did you see the Olympic woman who won the marathon? Yeah, she did 26.2 miles in 2:24. Holy Crap!! It took me exactly that long earlier in the day to run/walk 9 miles. Go figure.
Hang in there...you are doing great!!
Amy, if you only knew how often each of us questioned how in the world we got into this! I find myself laughing often about the fact that 7 of us had crazy moments align all at one time and signed up with you! We are so thankful!
Kristin, I watched that Olympic race too and was ready to cry! I kept thinking, who am I? Look at these women smashing my training times. Shannon could not believe I was glued to the TV watching people run. Did you notice though that some of them looked funny running too? I don't feel so bad about my form now.
Thanks, friends. That was my freak out and I'm feeling a bit more balanced again. This training process makes me feel (& probably appear) like I have multiple personality disorder. Geesh.
I'm living w/out television so sadly, I've missed most of the Olympics but I heard about the woman that won the marathon... amazing! I hope you're all gaining lots of inspiration from the games this summer!
I'm enjoying actually being in shape during the Olympics this year! ;-) They always inspire to exercise . . . for like 2 days, lol. I've got that beat by months this year!!
The cast is off as of today! Power walked 1 mile tonight - my ankle feels . . .weird. I think maybe it's just the muscles that haven't been used in 3+ weeks. I'm going to just run 1 mile in the morning and see how it feels. Thanks for the prayers and support. I hope to get back on track (although WAY behind y'all).
How well I can relate, Amy! Like you said, Katie, I'm sure we all can :) I had my mental breakdown in front of the computer last week when a donation of $100 came through from a friend... started weeping and a horrible headache came on and ended up not running that night b/c of it (Michael suggested biking which was a FABULOUS idea!). I am enjoying the benefits of exercise - glad you're back in, Jen :) - but, it's so consuming, isn't it? Less than 8 weeks - we CAN do it :)
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